My Weekend Was FINE!

lol, and when I say my weekend was FINE that's just an inside joke from one of the shows. My weekend was GREAT! Though, more difficult than I anticipated.

I went up there on Friday afternoon and left this afternoon (laborday). Normally Im in the habit of starting from.. well.. the start, but I think I am going to use this morning as the starting point to the story of my weekend.

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I was a fucking mess this morning, there was nothing specific causing it but every little thing created more emotion than I could hope to contain.

We sat watching CSI for a bit and it showed a flashback of the hooker putting her dead 5 year old nephews corpse in a container to hide him and it freakin brought tears to my eyes. Just briefly, nothing really bit, I was bawling my eyes out or anything, but it was the same feeling that always hits me when I see kid related stuff in movies or on the news or whatever, but this time I just couldn't contain it!

Then, not long after, the boys called me to tell me they were home. Tristan took his training wheels off his bike and he was telling me all about it and I could just feel the love in his voice. Sarah left the room for a bit but by the time she got back I was just completely in tears on the phone trying to sound normal. I mean, for christ sakes, I was just really happy and I couldn't contain it worth squat.

I kind of went back and forth like that for awhile today. Once I got in the car and started driving, though, my thoughts finally started re-aligning themselves and a big smile leapt to my face and has since not left. Thats right, its still right here with me, smack right on my lips is a big ass smile.

I had a really great weekend and in hindsight it is even greater than I realized.

Ok, now that I've completely thrown you off by starting with the end of the trip, Ill leap back to the beginning and tell it how its supposed to be told.

Wait Wait, just hold .. rushing me. Let me first explain who Sarah is. If you've been reading my blog for awhile, or delved into my archive of 117 blogs than you certainly already know who she is. But read this anyway, because a lot is changed.

Sarah is a really good friend of mine, I love her to death, she is just amazing. As a side note she put up with my crap all weekend long and she did it with style! :D. Sarah is in such a happy place right now, she has a new great job that she is really excited about, an awesome new home, she is closer to all her family again and just everything seems to be falling right into place for her and I could not be happier, she deserves it!

As far as who she is in my life, well, I guess you could say she is an ex-girlfriend. I have refered to her as such only a few times, and it sounds like she is in the same boat. I wouldn't say we officially dated, we just got really really close for a time and I would say we have kind of struggled to keep a friendship since. Im not sure how this weekend will effect that, it could be good it could be bad.

She has had an amazing impact on my life, she brought out a part of me I didn't even know existed and I am still trying to learn how to bring that part of me out on my own. She was there for me in a difficult time in my life and she is the only person I can fully trust to give me the truth. I can trust my other friends to slap me in the face and tell me to wake the 'F' up and they have all been there for me, but sometimes it has been hard to see through my family and friends bias and I never had that issue with Sarah.

Ok, so now you know who Sarah is. Well, back when she was first moving back to the seattle area and just got her new job she and I had made plans to get tickets to go to the Cougar Game in Qwest Stadium together. Things kind of got a little screwy for a bit and our plans got cancelled, kind of private.

Well, we started talking again and I had gotten tickets to the game for Fathers day (14 rows up from the field, THANKS JADON AND TRISTAN I LOVE YOU), we made plans to go and then we built up a weekend around it. Being a HUGE fan of the show "Friends" I started calling it SARAH + JASON's DAY OF FUN!

So we planned the game for Saturday, Bumbershoot for Sunday and the Zoo for Monday. The way I described Monday above aside, I am soooo happy we cancelled the Zoo part, it would have been hella fun but we were sooo worn out by Sunday night.

So I got there while Sarah was still at work on Friday and we hung out there for a bit. Then we went and picked up some food and went back to her place and just relaxed and caught up a bit while we ate dinner. We also watched a movie I should have watched forever ago, "Thank you for Smoking" it was really really good and I knew it would be, not sure why I never watched it. (and I might be confused, did we watch this Friday or Saturday before the comedy?)

Anyway, so we went to bed and then in the morning I woke up and then I got bored immediatly so I woke Sarah up too (which I am sure I will hear about for quite some time! and if she ever stays with me I am a little afraid of the payback!). We got ready for the Cougar Game, but we were lame and we forgot to get any tattoos or face paint or anything like that.

I had a TON of fun at the game, the seats were great, spending time with Sarah again was great. The cougars totally bombed, but we are both True Fans and we stayed until the end. This is my 3rd time to Qwest Field and so far I am 1 win 2 losses. The first time was a couple years ago for the same cougar game, we WON, but we lost this year and the the Seahawks lost the game against the Saints I went to. ALL FUN, but Ill have to go to that stadium at least a dozen more times to see if its just random or if I am bad luck! :-D lol

We went and ate at the Alderwood Mall (WHICH I FRICKEN LOVE) and then walked around for a bit. She had been wanting to buy this ring for herself for a bit and she thought about maybe buying it for herself for her approaching birthday. She had already pretty much convinced herself, so I think I was just there to cinch the deal in her mind LOL. She had been pointing out the purses from this store ALL DAY! :-) Coach Coach COACH.

That evening we sat back and watched comedy on TV that turned out to have some freakin amazing Hilarious comics, one in particular is named Daniel Tosh and we were both laughing hysterically!

Then we hit the hay. I woke up before her again... and yes I woke her ass up too! I gave her a bit more time Sunday morning, but not much! :-P Frankly, suprised Im still alive.

Sunday we went to Bumbershoot, and it was Amazing. We checked out the schedule and fit as much as we could in, we went to Three different Comedy Shows and ended the night with a Stone Temple Pilots Concert.

First we watched a Standup show with some guy whos name I can't remember, a really funny comic named Michelle Buteau and it ended with Janeane Garafalow. It was a good show, I liked Michelle Buteau the best, and I think Sarah might have liked the opening guy the best, and he was really funny!

Then we hit the one we were looking forward to the most, The MySpace Show. It was 6 comics and one of them pulled an volunteer out of the audiance and on a big screen they browsed this person's MySpace page and interviewed them about it for a few minutes (they did this twice during the hour show) after the interview they let the person go back to their seat and the 6 comics did all sorts of improvisational sketches mimicking this person and making fun of their myspace.. it was f'ing awesome and f'ing hilarious.

After that we ran back outside and got right into line for a 3rd comedy show. This was was called the Satiristas. It opened with Republican Senator Richard Martin taking questions, it was hilarious satire and the highlight of the 3rd show, check his website out at www.askarepublican.com . There were 3 other comics, one of which was Janeane Garafalow again, all 3 were very funny. The other 2 were Marc Maron and Tom Rhodes.

Then we had a bit of dinner and went and got seated for STP. I know there is a giant retard stamp on my forehead but I haven't been to a concert in 12 years. It was freakin awesome! Im not the biggest Stone Temple Pilots fan, but I am more than enough of a fan to enjoy them in concert and it was awesome.

Sarah wasn't so sure she would even know any songs, and I couldnt muster any up before the show for her. We ended up making a bet, the loser buys 2 apple cup tickets for us. The original idea was that if she KNEW at least 3 songs and recognized up to 8 then I won, but that was too complicated and she claims that if she hears a song she "knows" it, which is true. So we changed it to, if she knows at least 6 songs from what is played live then I win and she loses and has to buy us Apple Cup Tickets. And if she knows 5 or less, I loss and buy the tickets.

Well, we got to song 5 and I told her the bet was off, I was sure I was going to win but she had been paying for most of the weekend so I said regardless of who wins the bet I want to buy the tickets. Well, I won!!! And its always a nice feeling, when we left she had heard 8 songs that she knew and she was cursing her dad for not telling her band names to songs they had listened to a lot together. :-D

Suffice to say, we had already had a LOOONG weekend and when we got back to her place we both went to sleep right away. And well, I told you above how Monday went. We watched a little TV, did a bit of talking, ate lunch and then I was on my way. (I made really good time on both trips across the state).

Ultimately things were a little weird between us, it had been 10 months since we last saw each other, but it felt like 10 years. I knew I missed her, but it wasn't until I got there that I realized just how much.

The Cougar Game, The Comedy and Bumbershoot were all 2nd to getting to spend time with Sarah again and I hope we can do that every 4-6 months or so while we still are able. I don't know though, she likes to break up with me at least once every 6 months, and officially we never really dated LOL.

Well, I got home in time to play with my kids and put them in bed. Look over their papers and such from school on Friday. This weekend was exactly what I needed, I had a great time and I haven't felt this good in awhile.

With the new apartment comes a new beginning and Sarah said it best, she told me (and this is not an exact quote) that its like I am 20 again, moving out on my own for the first time. For me, that means a lot, I feel like it means I Need so shed my skin a bit, really start fresh in every way I can, life is going to be more different and challenging than ever. This is officially the new beginning, and I could not have said this this morning, but I can say it now. I feel ready.

Love,
Jason

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