Movies & More

Wow, there are a ton of upcoming movies I want to see on DVD:

Nov 28
Superman Returns
Clerks II
Superman II - The Richard Donner Cut
The Ant Bully

Dec 5
Pirates of the Caribbean - Dead Man's Chest
Miami Vice
Beerfest

Dec 12
Talladega Nights
Barnyard
World Trade Center
Fox and the Hound 2

Dec 19
Lady in the Water
Invincible
My Super Ex-Girlfriend
A Scanner Darkly

Dec 26
Jackass - Number Two
The Descent

Jan 2
Snakes on a Plane
The Covenant

Jan 9+
The Illusionist
Crank

I just finished watching Platoon. I hadn't seen it before, rented it at least once and never watched it though, its been one Ive wanted to see for a long time now. It was pretty good.

Looks like I will be seeing my wife again in just a few weeks. I was looking foreward to seeing her last time, but this time so many things have changed. I almost dread it. I love to see her, but if I could never see her again it would probably be for the best, just too much pain involved. At least I won't cry like a baby, just seeing her come off the plane in October brought tears to my eyes, having only seen her once before in 7 months... Sometimes I still can't even believe this is all happening.

I feel like she is just going to show up and want to work things out. Its been 8 months now, Ill probably be saying the same sappy crap when its been 24 months. I know that I could never go back to her now, not after all of this, not after everything we have said and done.

I did the best I could, and I know I will improve and do better in the future. I don't regret any of my decisions, because even some of the bad ones taught me valuable lessons. There are some things I wish I could change, but not things I had any control over.

I just hope that we can parent together the way we want to. I think it will be best for our kids, or the best that we can manage now. Right now I can't even really get her to talk to me, and I still don't believe 100% of what she is saying, so many things she has said in the past 5-6 months or more have been lies, even when she told me the 'truth' finally, some of that was a lie. I dont know if she even wants what she says she wants, as far as myself and the kids go. I just hope so, because otherwise Im screwed.